Reminiscing and Reevaluating

 The point of this post is to update you in what has been the haps in my life lately. Things in my life have changed significantly. I am no longer playing tennis (which most people know, but it really is a HUGE change). I am reminiscing because sometimes it is easier to do that than face the cold hard facts, that in fact I am growing up. I am an agent unto myself, and I have to make decisions. No longer will I be in the comfort of my parents kitchen opening up presents, with my biggest concern as being if it is my dang Easy Bake Oven (I may have some un-resolved issues there...), screaming my high pitched scream that not even a first soprano can hit the note I scream.

 Look at Jarrett (LOVE the penguino shirt) and me....No worries at all.  Lo que una vida!

 I am not in high-school anymore worrying about senior pictures. I am worrying now about making it to my senior year. It is a hard journey when you are not sure what you want to do in your life, and my life plan that I have had since I was a little girl is no longer my plan. My biggest decisions my senior year was when I was going to say yes to living in Hawaii and what to wear at state.

Life does not get any better than at Lake Powell. I have been on some pretty cool vacations, but this vacation by FAR is my absolute FAVORITE!! Lake Powell I think seriously calls my name, and while I haven't been there for a while, I CRAVE going back every summer. This is a place of my childhood and I plan on marrying someone who appreciates Lake Powell and wants to take our family there. 

 This picture is....is....how Shawni and I were. I was the serious one, and she was the happy go lucky. This trip was fun even though it rained the whole time on the Big Island. This is no longer in my life, and I am not sure if I miss it or what but life is definitely different. I miss my best friend. I miss all of my friends in Hawaii, Chanise, Nat, Britt, SHAWNSTER...etc. 

This is how I feel every day...What now, except I haven't had that smile for a while. It stresses and wears me out trying to figure out what I want to do, but I guess everything should not be handed to us right??